2 hours ago
you make me feel out of my element tonight was orgasmic;literally. i can’t say those 3 words though, you have to earn that
i seem to have you right here with me now. All i need id for you to say it.
Abital & Janelle, its been so long since i’ve talked to you guys. Where have you been? I hope all is good. I miss you, so many things to share with you. I made up with that lil bezzy… more to say when i talk to you girls <3
oh its so amazing here
“I spent my entire day thinking of you. I checked my phone every second with expectations of that one text from you. Wondering why you din’t text me like you always would. Were you busy doing something else with someone else? Wondering if you were even thinking of me. Wondering if i was just used. Wondering if your reply to my ‘i miss you’ with hugs&tears meant anything. Wondering, wondering…Roaming around this big house absorbing its emptiness i begin to feel lonely. Reminiscing about last night, I begin to feel toyed with. I was mad, maybe a little hurt. Till the clock stroked 11.27pm, i see that purple speech bubble. A text! My heart skipped a beat. We talked and you mentioned why i din’t call you up cause you were sleeping all day. Mentioned that you want to come over and just watch tv with me. Mentioning… i think i’m falling for you again.”
1 day ago
theresnorealloveinyou
imma do homework cause i’m FUCKING BORED on a saturday night. *sigh
Its almost 8am. Been up since late 6ish hiding the evidence of the party. Now i need to do a major cleanup of the house. Fucking Jon puked in my bathroom, the kitchen is dirty with alcohol and korean bbq. The party was just right, a nice kickback honestly. thank goodness we cut the list by ALOT or this place will get trashed. I’m handling well when my co-host got wasted way early in the night and gets a hangover and can’t help me with clearing up. urgh. Yesterday was the first time we “hungout” together since then, as always she’s g-o-n-e and me avoiding her for the night, turned into providing her the things she needs to feel better. Someone caught us by sound and they hunted me down for it. Other than that, it was a great night. Freestyling, eating, drinking, blazing, dancing, UFC watching… and what nots
” i don’t want her here. <why> everytime i see her i get pissed. <why> she’s just so stupid. i ripped the picture she drew into pieces, like 50 pieces. <in front of her face> yeahup -silence- why are you up here <just cause. i’m tired> -silence- <why are you up here> because i was looking for you”
imissyouimissyoutoo
idontknowifwhatididorsaidwasright
2 days ago
yeahup you are automatic.
it never hit me that this song was that meaningful till i read the lyrics. i thought it was just your typical mainstream love song.
3 days ago
i’m excited for tomorrow (: today was a good day in some sense. I miss you, i really do & i’m surprised i said it. Falling asleep on you is amazing and after all that, making our snacks together is absolutely wonderful, teehee (; but you are “automatic”. I should have told you what i was suppose to when i was thinking of it but then you embraced me and i let it all go. tomorrow though, i’ll say it and i’ll ensure i’m not drunk.
for you janelle: kitchen & living room numero uno
4 days ago
I’ve officially moved to Jon’s uncle’s. Time to have wild nights & party.
He has a private pool too (; can’t wait for friday. I have to study too…
